September 2009
63 posts
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Mood Tracker →
disorderlymind:
Really interesting site for tracking moods. It has mood charts, reminder emails or text messages for mes, also alert setups for sending emails or text to people when you report severe mood swings, etc. Pretty nice setup. I’ve been using it for about 4 days so far, I’ll try to do a review here in about a month to let you all know how it pans out.
This is a note to myself so that...
fun fact
ieatcatlitter:
lihtknack:
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lihtknack:
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lihtknack:
I used to want to be a Suicide Girl…actually, I’d still like to be one.
That is all.
i did too but i’m what you might call fat.
Well, I’m not exactly thin either. But there’s no definition of beauty, right?
if only that were true
You know, if just a few people started seeing it as true - I think...
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It’s hard for me to move into a new relationship, because I still love you. I don’t want to want anyone else but you.
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Words fail to express how excited I am for the House premiere tonight.
Fuck yes.
I want to have House and or Hugh Laurie’s children.
Ashleyyyyy. thanks fer following me.
goddessofthenight:
You’re welcome. I’m not online as often now, since the charge for my iPod touch died and I’m too lazy to find the cord to charge it. But I still update, obvsly. Just creep a bit less. ^.^
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I had a really good date this weekend. Actually, my first ever with a boy.
He came over to my house Saturday morning and I beasted him at scrabble by 50 points. We headed downtown for lunch (he forgot his card in his car, so i covered him). In return for me covering his lunch, he bought me a copy of wuthering heights (…and did a dramatic reading) and some ben&jerry’s. After that,...
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1) What do you do when your friends start abandoning you? How do you get over your fears of someone abandoning you? I feel like I’ve ‘pushed’ them as far as they can go, and several are now at the point of “I don’t know what to do with her/can’t handle this/don’t want to or don’t know how to help her. I’m terrified that my best friend is fed up...
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So, I haven’t blogged in a bit about anything meaningful because I’ve been busy doing shit, as well as angsting. I work 6 am-2pm every day but Thursday, when I work 6am-9am and have a volunteer shift at the co-op from 11am-3pm. I talked to my parents a few nights ago. For 40 minutes.
Did I hold this conversation in my apartment, indoors? No. I walked to the building on campus where I...
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Hazards Of Working In Food Services
Today, me and another worker were asked to clean out chicken breasts and legs before sticking them in an oven. I kind of stood there as the other guy opened the bag of meat pieces with blood pooled at the bottom. Raw, freshly-killed looking ribs. And having to rip excess fat off the breasts (I was thinking at that point, you know we only have to do that because females are forcefed/fattened to the...
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News
I’m volunteering for a 5 hour shift at a co-op on Thursday. I’ve shopped there before but they’re uber-expensive…however, they give a working member discount of around 20% and my friend who’s volunteered there before says after awhile they’ll just give you stuff for free.
The place is like a vegan walmart. Egg substitute, Amy’s no chicken noodle soup,...
10362.) Sometimes at night, I can feel him...
(via blogsecret)
Clearly this is Bella Swan revealing to us how she really feels about the creeper behavior of her boyfriend/stalker.
Currently having a discussion with my BFF about the imaginary lovechild of Lestat and Edward Cullen. This amuses me. Lots.
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10242.) I constantly worry about my best friend....
(via blogsecret)
I like to pretend these type of secrets are from you. Even though I know they’re not.
10274.) I think Max Bemis is the most beautiful...
(via blogsecret)
You, sir or madam, are correct.
“Wow, I Can Get Sexual Too” is my ringtone for people I like. ;)
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Intensive Outpatient Therapy
opinionatedvulgarity:
disorderlymind:
Now that I am out of the hospital I am in an intensive outpatient therapy program. I go Monday through Friday from 9am to 3pm. We do group therapy the whole time. The progress is so significant compared to inpatient that it’s night and day. Then again the patients are night and day. We are all in a different place, we are all beyond the suicidal thoughts...
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patron saint of liars and fakes
I’ve smoked quite a bit. I really want to buy ice cream, comfort food, what have you buttttt money that should have gone to food went to cigarettes. And I recognize that eating my feelings isn’t necessarily the best coping mechanism though GOD do I love the weight going entirely to boobs. I have problems. I know that. I’ve fallen more than once, I will continue to fuck up. The...
You led me on. The logical thing to do is to call our mutual frenemy/enemy/I don’t even know what, and cry to her. I am going to be a complete mess at the end of that call.
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10186.) i hate myself for not having had the...
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::stares pointedly::
I’m listening to Bedlight For Blue Eyes and wondering why I always have to fuck my relationships up. I know you’re giving me good advice. I know I should listen to it, I know you’re pissed at me. I scare myself sometimes. Get myself hyped up over nothing. Push people away. I’m terrified you’re going to leave me, now. Because I’m a horrendous bitch, I have mood...
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Tattoos I Would Get If Money And Covering Up Were...
1) Part of the Wristcutters: A Love Story movie poster—thick red line and a few hearts, over my wrist
2) “tremble for my beloved” Yes, from the Collective Soul song. I don’t actually like this song at all. But the phrase seems so beautiful to me in an odd way.
3) Outline of the US with the Air Force wings in the middle, with one of the wings upside down. For a) my friend...
10078.) Fuck you.
(via blogsecret)
I don’t need you, get out.
(…sorry. Couldn’t resist the John Ralston plug)
I love you. And I will wait…not without the occasional complaint or grumble, but I will wait weeks into months into years. Because you deserve as much.
“But “concept” to “do”
Is like “yes” to a...”
– “Sex Is Personal,” by The Faint
[This was the first song on my Pandora station…hi, irony, my name’s Ashley]
burqini blues (by a man, of course... sigh...) →
writinggirl2writingwoman:
this made a lot of sense right up until it invoked how great the U.S. is and how this is the only country where muslims can dress however they want to go swimming. because that may have proven true for this particular family, but it is not true for so many others in this country.
That is why, with her faults and shortcomings notwithstanding, the United States of...
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10027.) There's a fine line between caring and...
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Hmm. I said to someone recently that I worry about him like it’s an Olympic sport. At first it was worrying my head off about him. Then it settled into caring, and knowing he’s not going to get axed just yet. Now it’s a bit of “meh…what happens after THIS?” God and I still aren’t back in a good relationship yet. But if we were, I’d...
“I can’t remember if I texted Voldemort with ‘love you and get...”
– Top on the list of things I never thought I’d say
Describe Yourself In One Word
cuntisslangforvagina:
lostinowlcity:
maybeimdreaming:
crystaldanarae:
allhopedeleted:
mayaraisrad:
sydneyaustralia:
goflyakate:
wide-eyedworld:
lucaisatelethon:
samanthaofthedead:
mofosluv:
yayduke:
feedtheplants:
Modest.
blunt.
stupid
awesome
Luca
Lame.
Loser
meth
Nuts.
tumblrfuck.
abnormal
Awkward.
waffles
mental
damaged
Ugh. A couple of sentences with him and I can’t even BEGIN to explain what he does to me. I know we were weird, while he was here. I know that there was something there. He’s part of my reason I took up smoking.
Aaaannnnddd he’s married.
Pause for FML.
So, J:
I love you. That’s not news or anything. Apparently you can’t get me over you by being an asshole, or by ignoring me/leaving me. You and Ian are kind of acting like the same person right now. Trying to “distance” yourselves. Like…what the fuck kind of good is that supposed to do? It’s never going to happen. The odds of us both being a) single, b) sober,...
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I just chatted for a few hours with my rapist’s ex-best friend.
It was weird, because it wasn’t weird at all.
His nickname is Whore Catholic (because if you even were raised Catholic, i don’t care what you are right now, you go in my phone as [insert adjective here] Catholic).
Reblog if you've ever wanted Shane McCutcheon in...
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Hasn’t everyone?
I now have an intense desire to rewatch the “shane does an underwear ad” scene.
